In the middle of all this self doubt and support, I did decide on a small step to start. I made my own laundry detergent. I found literally fifty different recipes, all containing the same ingredients in different amounts. Then the question I pondered for three days: liquid or powder? I finally decided on powder. I had already gotten my ingredients days prior. I just left them on the kitchen table, where they stared at me until I made a decision. I used Arm & Hammer Washing Soda, Borax, and Fels Naptha Soap. As a side note, try to pawn off grating the Fels Naptha soap to someone else, say like an older child. It takes FOREVER and makes your arm hurt!! I only made a half batch of detergent. I didn't want to have a ton of it left over if it didn't work and possibly my arm got tired halfway through grating the soap. I have only washed one load with it so far. It seemed to clean but you don't get the fresh clean smell that the perfumed detergent leaves. I was surprised that you only need one tablespoon per load. It seems very cost effective. Many websites also suggest using the generic OxyClean powder when your clothes are really dirty. We will see how it goes and I will more than likely try the liquid version too.
While walking through the aisles of Weis Markets yesterday (not buying laundry detergent), I was completely shocked at what I was experiencing... I don't go shopping often. Usually I don't have an opportunity to shop without my two children and I think I would rather us go hungry then to have to deal with meltdowns in the frozen food section. However, yesterday I took out my daugther (she's six) for lunch and grocery shopping. She actually likes to go and hold the list and check off each item. Anyhoo, I was completely shocked at the prices of the items I buy! I found myself looking at the Miracle Whip saying to myself, "Six dollars! I remember when miracle whip was only $2.50!" like a grumpy old man. Then in the produce section, I started to really notice the quality of the food that I normally buy. Looking at the bruised fruit and the the brown salad mix, I started longing for the garden I am planning for the spring. I vowed right beside the tomatoes to grow as much as I could and preserve enough to last until the next year. I might have left Weis with a $253.00 receipt and 50 gas points, but I also left with a complete reassurance that I am heading in the right direction.